Christ is my rock. I will tell you how I really began to find him. I read the 2nd comforter… and things have never been the same.
Really if I rewind time, I see it started when I was going to tell my sister who was having a very bad rough patch in her marriage to toughen up, but what came out of my mouth next was unexpected. It was “Read the Emotion Code”. Well, I have only heard of that book months before in a short brief conversation. After I said it – the Spirit came crashing down on me like thunder. YES! I had to get the book. I called my mom and told her Susan needed that book. I called my other sister and told her about it. I looked up all I could about it, and then got it on the computer. I had ordered the book but was too impatient. I read it before it arrived in the mail a few days later.
I learned how to be in tune with energy, I learned about healing with Christ as my focus, I learned about involving God unpeel the faulty layers on our beings – not every being put into those words, but that is what was happening.
I was lead along a path I found others were being led to. A friend who was on the same path at the same time as me, would help me navigate this territory as well. She told me about “conquering Spiritual Evil” which sounded a little scary. Eventually I got that and all the Mendenhall’s books and CDs that I could. I plowed through them. Then I was led to “The Second Comforter.”
Meanwhile, I was trying to listen to the Spirit give me several LOUD soul stirring orders to get my food storage in line. Medicinal seeds, vinegar, paper products, coconut oil, essential oils, baking soda, – whatever the Spirit LOUDLY told me to do. My spirit could not be at rest until I did it. But it felt good.
I started searching for others who were on a similar path as me and came across a forum. I looked around and was led to find people here and there on the forum who had had amazing experiences. Many had visions, some received the 2nd comforter, many had their calling and election made sure. I also began to notice something else – these same people saw that not all was well in Zion.
This bothered me. I had also read Denise Mendenhalls Book “In His Arms” which is one of my all time favorite books for its purity and simplicity of her NDE at 10 in her own words. In it, she mentioned that Christ told her “There is no true church upon the earth. It will be and its called “The Church of the Firstborn.” This bothered me also. Why did she word it like that? I thought we NOW had the fullness. I prayed about this. I started looking up “Church of the Firstborn.” I found passages in the scriptures, I read a couple people who were told they were part of it. It is gathered by Heaven. No man can invite you in. Why didn’t I hear about this at church? Isn’t that IMPERATIVE? Joseph Smith talked about this quite a bit as well.
I began to understand that all indeed was not well in Zion. Little by little the Lord showed me how many things were not adding up. I was very concerned in the beginning that NO warnings were being given out by what I could FEEL was coming. I felt in my Spirit that times were drawing to a close. I was told that our dispensation is coming to a close and we are “morphing” into another dispensation. What that dispensation would be or how started I did not know. I just knew what the Lord told me.
I noticed these talks in Gen. Conference at this time were extremely light on doctrine, very much directed to those tuning in for the first time (This being in 2012). I was disappointed by how unspiritually fed I was. At this time I had an immense hunger (and still do ) to learn about God, Heavens, PURE doctrine by Joseph Smith. When I read his words I was a amazed at their spiritual feasting. Where was that these days? I’m not saying I don’t enjoy talks on Charity, Feeling the Spirit, Tithing, Missionary Work and Pornography , but here is SO.MUCH.MORE.
I listened to Denver Snuffers CDS to his lecture tour. I was amazed about HOW FILLED they were of pure truth. It tasted SO GOOD. The contrast between his CDs and General Conference was STARK. It was similar to the flavor of reading Joseph Smith. Both constantly pointing you to seek your calling and Election, to seek the 2nd comforter, to rend the veil. Meanwhile, I was hearing members being called in to disciplinary councils for TALKING about those things. What on EARTH is going on? I began to her more and more people being called in. Of course, Denver also had just been excommunicated.
I thought about these things CONSTANTLY, though no one would ever know. I was TBM all the way. Pioneer stock, all that. But I could feel the Spirit urging me to press forward. I did not voice this part of my journey to anyone, lest I lead anyone astray while not knowing. I asked God if Denver was from him. He has shown me that he is. I have asked many many times. I am reading all of his works, and listened to all his CDs and I have learned more by doing that, that 35 years of learning and serving a mission.
Meanwhile I learned to REALLY pray. I had been praying with my arms folded all my life. I did not REALIZE that we are SUPPOSED to pray with uplifted hands, as it talks about in the Old Testament, New Testament, POGP, D & C, and Book of Mormon. When I began to do that, things REALLY started changing. I began to also pray vocally. Angels started leading my hands, as I asked the Lord to teach me how to pray. I just let my hands by led.
I FELT the Savior in his Spirit form, with my physical form. I felt the nailmarks in his hands. He has held my hands, and I have held his. He has lifted me off the floor. He has taken from my hands those things that have held me back – false paradigms, false ideas, false notions, misbeliefs, unbeliefs, false beliefs, pride, and other things. I have pled to the Lord of my standing before Him. He cleansed me by Baptsim by fire and the Holy Ghost. It took place over 3 nights. Each night a little more baptized by fire. I prayed mighty prayers. The first one was a struggle that took 3 hours. I was freezing cold in the dead of winter praying in my basement. I have heard Heavenly Mother’s voice out loud once and it shocked me for days! I have come to feel like Zion is waiting for me and my family. My relationship with Father is wonderful – I will ask him deep things or just common things and he will immediately answer me. He really IS talkative. I have began to receive prophecy on what is coming. I write it all down. My relationship with my Savior and My God and My Heavenly Mother and first and foremost in my life.
Meanwhile I listen to Sacrament meeting with themes like “Love the BRETHREN!” REALLY??!?!?! We should NEVER be hearing talks about loving MEN, no matter WHO THEY ARE!!!! WE should ONLY be talking about God, and His Son – topics that flow from them. NEVER will I give a talk about loving a MAN in church as the theme. WICKED, EVIL topic. Idolatry!!! Purveyors of a FALSE PRIESTCRAFT! While excommunicating many (my count of those I know is now 5 with many who have been called in)who have sought Christ while IN THE FLESH!!! The whole REASON we go to the temple! Has the world turned upsidedown?!?!
The schism foretold in the church has begun. Either you choose Christ and higher things, or you choose DWINDLING in unbelief.